What kind of crusher are you :D

Okay...memandangkan Cik Mishmish sekarang ni tengah dalam keadaan malas tahap malasnya seperti seekor kura-kura gergasi di kepulauan Galapagos apakata kiter tengok hasil quiz???

(^_~)

------> Results!

Super Secret Admirer ----> [super secret lah sangat!!]
Whether it's 'cause you're shy,[? Aku akan malu bile die ade dekat situ ajer. Tapi bile die takder dekat situ aku okay je kot..macam biase.] seriously fear rejection,[sangatlah benar! Kalau dia reject, sure heboh aku taknak terserempak dengan die lagi!!] or just don't really know the person, [Oh la la..touche! aku memang tak kenal mamat nih! Baru lagi..] you aren't too out there when it comes to crushing. Sure, you know how that person laughs and have probably noticed the kind of music they listen to, [Aku tak tau die dngr lagu aper.Tapi aku tau dressing die superb!] but that's on a slightly stalker-ish level you might want to avoid... [Memanglah aku nak avoid. Nanti die pikir aku ni baru lepas langgar tiang eletrik!]Try to talk to them some, not a full out hour long conversation, but maybe a "Hey!" And a "Nice shirt, where'd you get that? Oh, well it looks good..." Be braver and know you can do it!!! :D [Huh?! aku tau lah dressing die superb tapi untuk berbual dengan dia dan cakap 'hai superb la dressing awak. and again AWAK???']

--------> Conclusion?

(0_o)...aku hopelessly hopeless lah bile dalam bab-bab chenta nih!

Dah lama aku tak tunggang terbalik macam nih...apa aura mamat ni ada sampai aku bole jadi macam gini??

Hailoh ~ ~ Hailoh ~ ~ (T_T)

Which Love Quote Fits Me Best ?

I think you just need to stop thinking of why you feel the way you do about certain people and why others feel a certain way about you.--->[ Hahaha..tersangat lah benar. Sumtymes i feel aku ni paranoid tentang benda yang tak perlu!] It's just one of life's mysteries that unfortuately no one will solve in this lifetime. Don't follow your mind, follow your heart. ---> [Ikot hati binasa! We need logic man!]Sometimes your mind will trick you into thinking something is wrong, [Unless u learn Logic! Thnx Dr. Farid ^_~] but if your mind knows the definition of love, your heart should be able to follow it correctly (unless your heart has somehow been corrupt,[kureng asam btol?! Corrupt?!] but that would make a completely different story). Figuring out why you love will only confuse your heart, and then you will be unable to love.(Unable to love? oh no nehi! Love will find those who believe.) When it comes to love, let your mind help with making a good decision, not let it completely take over.

------> konklusi?

"Aku tak percaya cinta~ ~"

I found a quote on my study desk bearing " What is love? Love will resides in the heart of those who believed in it." ----> dah tu aku yang masih lagi confuse? Camner?

But still i don't understand why somtimes people 'jump' into a relationship if they are unsure where is their relationships heading to? (0_o)..

I don't banned relationships its just im confused (^_~)

For Cryin' Out Loud (T_T)

Hailoh...hailoh...i have a great feeling in me that i’ll be a very,very,very bad mother. Seorang syaida ni sangat lah tidak pandai dalam hal-hal yang berkaitan budak –budak kecik. Sungguh tak tipu yang aku ni sangat lah alergi dengan budak kecik.

Hailaaa..dah lah aku ni fail to the bottom when it comes to love and im a total loser when it comes in handling kids!

Last Tuesday, in the quest of finding strenght to continue going to my Usul-al-din class, i decided to take a sip or two of Neslo ice at Hs cafe. Well..i bumped into other singaporeans who’s waiting for their ordered food. Aku pun duduk-duduk lah dengan dorang ni sekejap. Actually tak duduk pon. Aku berdiri to be exact.
Excited ni jumpe kawan2 singapore. So aku dengan zeid berbual lah. Berbual punya berbual until aku mintak permission untuk pergi beli air. And than...[hari ini dalam sejarah] aku rasa macm aku ada langgar benda la. Aku toleh...aiseh aku terlanggar budak dalam umur 4 tahun gitu. Berdebuk! Macam nangka busuk daa dia jatuh terduduk kat atas lantai cafe HS tu! Aku tergamam [shocked] tak tau dah nak buat apa. Tapi entah lah...lekas-lekas aku angkat dia. Nanti tak tolong angkat macam biadap lah pulak. Masa aku angkat budak ni...muka dia dah lain habis! Aku dalam hati berdoa tak putus-putus [Ya Allah..janganlah budak ni nangis ke menjerit ke...mati aku!].

At first tu...dia tak nangis. Okay jer sebab budak lelaki kan..nanti tak macho plak kalau nangis dekat public. Ceh...jangkaan aku meleset! Bila dia nampak mak dia approach dia, secrara automatiknya dia menjerit! For crying out loud could he ever kept his tone down??!! He was screaming on top of his lung as if like he was beaten or somtehing like that! (0_o)And i can feel that every pairs of eyes at HS cafe that time was eyeing on me! [the girl in jubah putih who made a boy cry!]

Waaa...aku dah tak tahan malu. Muka aku waktu toksah cakap la..dah macam kene simbah dengan minyak cap kapak! Panas habis sebab malu orang ramai tengok! Aku terus lupe yang aku nak minum air. Aku lupakan niat aku yang sememangnya dari tadi tersangat lah haus! Aku dengan zeid pon bukak langkah seribu. Dah tak toleh-toleh belakang da...

Than aku dapat info...budak ni kalau jatuh kita HARUS buat bodoh atau buat derk ajer. Nampak sangat kejam tapi thats the fact. Itu yang membuatkan dorang tak akan nangis. Tapi kalau kita datang...pujuk...tanya dlm suara yang memujuk mcm “alala..anak ibu jatuh ye? Sakit ye? Kat mana?” memang seratus peratus budak tu akan menjerit mcm anjing tersepit! Nak attention lah sangat. Padahal sakitnyer tak seberapa. *sheesh*

Hailo.......hailo...syaida...pada sesiapa yang membaca..mesti da buat kesimpulan yang aku tak suke budak2..bukan tak suka cume mungkin tak tau nak handle kot? (T_T)

What is your favourite series of the 90’s?

In 1993, i was 5 years old back than. The secondary friend i had after my pimary friends [kids on my block] was the television! In my spare time i would spent most of my times infront of the television. And talking about my favourite series of the 90’s was the MIGHTY MORPHIN POWER RANGERS!!!! It was a phenomenon back than. Every body wanted to be the power rangers. Either the Black ranger or the Blue ranger or the Red ranger for the boys and Pink ranger or the Yellow ranger for the girls.

As for me...i would always wanted to be the pink ranger! [That really explains why i possesed loads of pink stuff!] When i came to think about it, i would smile and think how young and gullible i was! Hahaha such reminsce of my chilhood that can never be retrived back in my present adulthood [or still in my adolosence?? (T_T) ]. But...occasionally i will surf the net and try to retrived my childhood by watching the power rangers episodes on youtube!

How i stumble upon this series? As far as i can remember...during my "Tadika" years, My abah akan bawak i pergi this one S.C [shooping centre]. Nama S.C tu Beauty World located dekat Bukit Timah, Singapore. During the 90's that place was a popular spot among the s'poreans tapi sekarang tempat tu is no more a hot spot like before. [Okay back to my story]..dekat level 2 S.C tu ader kedai yang jual T.V and other electronics devices. The 'tokeh' of the kedai letak this one huge television dekat depan kedai dia and dia bukak cerita power rangers. Me..only 5 at that time was so captivated will sit infront of the T.V sampai petang! And my abah will simply left me there. [im not alone okay? There are other kids like me over there.] And i will stay sampai abah cakap "jom kita balik". I think kan sekarang kalau nak elak anak2 hilang dekat S.C, letak jer depan kedai T.V yang bukak cerita kartun ke apa ker..Gerenti tak hilang and tak payah pergi Information counter sebab nak buat buat announcement yang anak hilang! Tapi sekarang ada Ben 10...best sangat ker?

Why do i like this show so much? I can't remember much why do i like this show so much. I think is the message that the show conveyed. Good always triumph over evil...

And last but not least...i've always had a huge crush on the white ranger a.k.a Thomas 'Tommy' Oliver...*Blushing* Hehehe..because he look so pure in his white clothes and constantly fighting the bad guys...plus he is great in martial arts too! Speaking of how to save the damsel in distress

Guess i don't have a deprive childhood afterall.

Mine is extra colourful thanks to the power rangers

Pink Ranger

White ranger

Ps: sheesh... i cant upload the pink and white ranger's picture! [im using ITDF lab..(0_o)]

Relationship + Boys = Bloody Mess....

Relationships + Boys = Bloody Mess! That was the equation i've recently applied in my life. Siapa kata tak ada benda yang lagi susah dari equation E=mc Squared? Ada...and that is Emotion = Emosi.

Petang tadi..ade discussion on this very popular topic lah...RELATIONSHIPS! Lain orang lain lain pendapat. Ada yang cakap Relationships are all about give and take and tolerence [toleransi]. Pada aku it's just messy and headache. Nampak sangat yang aku ni judgemental dan pesimis dalam hal yang berkaitan chenta-chenta dan perasaan. Mungkin sebab aku pernah diketemukan dengan mereka-mereka yang akhirnya membuatkan aku jadi saaaaangat pesimis dan judgemental.

Kawan aku ada cakap...kalau ikut statistik, disebabkan hanya kerana 2 orang aku jadi macam gini...aku tak logik. Dan aku ni seolah-olah being very phobiatic[is there such a word?] against relationships. Maybe...

Getting hurt again and again is part of being in relationships. Or maybe a trial for the relationships. I have been hurt before and thats the main reason i build a wall around me. Is it my nature? I myself are not able to answer the question. Tapi...aku berpegang pada janji ALLAH. Setiap mahkluk tu dijadikan berpasang-pasangan. Samada jodoh itu cepat atau lambat.

Conclusion of the discussion? My friend assumed that my hadaf [goal] adalah andartu! No Relationships + No Boys = ANDARTU? FEMINIST?

Sangatlah kasar konkulsi kawan aku ni terhadap aku. Sebaik ajer die buat konklusi tersebut, Pencilbox aku melayang tepat kena dada dia! Doakan aku jadi ANDARTU lagi...!

An empath within me

I am not raedy to return back to UIAM for the second semester of 09/10. Seriously im kinda lacking lots and lots of enthusiasm to start classes and lectures. Two weeks spending in my home basically doing nothing else than watching the hit tv series 'CHARMED'. And besides watching charmed on youtube ive been doing nothing especially after getting know about MY results. Results that really killed my weekend,killed my spirit,killed my enthusiasm,killed almost half of my sanity and finally like adding salt to injury, it totally stepped on my esteem making me felt more inferiority complex to others especially my inner circle of friends.

Eventhough i have failed one paper during my 2nd semester [08/09] and yes it killed my day but what amazed me is that i did not shed even a single tear when i heard i failed yet another paper for this semester. I just dont feel the need of crying over a spilt milk. Maybe it was because that i have already forsee that i am goin to fail the paper that made me feel like not crying. Amazing isn't it?

Amused...i am amused with myself for not sheding a single tear for my failure. But hell yeah when people coming up to me saying " Alah...it's one paper you failed but you've aced an A for a paper..." Hahahahaha...its easier said than done isn't it? Well yes of course is it. Becuase it's goin to be my *&^ who's gonna sit for that paper but not u...what good is it anyway if u aced an A for A paper but yet you failed the other paper? Dosen't sound like a party to me. I dont care if the paper that i failed consist 1 or 0.5 credit hour but the things that bugged me is that i failed a 3 credit hour paper staright in two semesters!

Uuughh..i am totally pissed off! somtimes i wonder why those people who constantly said that they are not good enough but eventually in the end the scored the damn paper? Why is it always me???? I did not curse the lecturer...i came to his classes..i did what i've been told..but why this 'stuff' ended on me?!

"Hajat aku untuk dapat A untuk QPR tercapai..." WTH was that supposed to mean...i dont prayed it that way. What does it good anyway....Hmph!

Is is ANGST or just PARANOIA?